Long time no see!
Over the past 6 months I’ve let the blog degrade into a very active Instagram account. Which has been amazingly fun and low-stress, but I’ve missed sharing more details on what’s been going on and what I’ve been doing. Sooo... I’m trying to get back into the blogging game with a vengeance.
The reason for dropping off the face of the blog is that I started working again - yahoo! Not that taking care of the girls hasn’t been the hardest job I’ve ever done, but I’m back among the land of adults (part-time at least). I can’t even tell you how petrified I was about starting work again. I’d taken almost 5 years off and had never worked in the Silicon Valley before and was convinced that no one would want to hire me. It took a long time to mentally prepare for this leap.
It’s shocking how close to the cuff I kept the whole job-search process. I don’t think I told all three of my sisters until after I got the job. Tells you just how nervous I was! I was acting as if I was the only stay-at-home-mom that had ever tried to go back to work. And I was so afraid that I would fail that I couldn't talk about it out loud. I probably would have felt much better had I reached out to everyone and shared my internal struggle/insecurities. I’m working on that – not acting like I can take care of and manage my whole world alone.
I'd been wanting to get back into the working world, but hadn’t put a tremendous amount of effort into it, until my oldest daughter said, “Mommy, why don’t mommies work?” And being the semi-feminist that I am, I had to remedy that train of thought before it went too far. Of course Mommies work! And they should, if they want to! I made sure to point out that taking care of her and her sister was more work than anyone would ever ask for, but that was beside the point. Back to work I went.
All in all it’s been going great, the whole work/life balance. Now, full disclosure, I’m only working 3 days a week, so I do have time to get things done, which makes it easier and possible to feel like I’m still killing it as a mom. And until the girls are older, the amount of time is just right. I can still show up for school events, pick them up from school… And my husband has become Super Dad. He drops the girls off at preschool 3 days a week and they’ve bonded more than I even thought possible. Added bonus!
But I do love getting those early morning texts from my husband asking who a certain tiara belongs to. I’ll always be needed ;-) At least for next few years!
It feels so good to be writing and sharing again! Thanks for listening, and look out for some fun blog posts coming your way soon.